On November 1st, I experienced a journey with mushrooms, and it turned out to be an incredibly deep, and in some ways, challenging experience—what one might call a “bad trip.” In hindsight, however, I can see how essential this experience was for my personal growth. It was like a “magic push” from the mushrooms, propelling me toward a change that I will never forget.

The most important support throughout this journey was Roman’s presence and invaluable guidance. During this journey, at the very beginning I had already encountered the deepest fears. You could say that I met the devil himself, but also later I met the creator of God himself I was frightened by this experience, I was not prepared for such depth. I didn’t warn the novelist, I didn’t even want to tell him about my request. But this huge kick, this Encounter with the darkest and the brightest helped me to break out of my inner cage. His attentive and sensitive approach made even the most difficult moments more manageable. Following his advice and guidance helped me find inner stability and calm, allowing me to navigate through the challenging emotions and situations that arose along the way. These intense experiences of transformation frightened me, I didn’t know how to cope and at some point I felt that I was dissolving. At that moment Roman came over, he intuitively sensed that everything was moving towards a terrible state. he put his hands on my stomach, my stomach stopped shaking and moving around. I felt calm. I was able to come back to myself. Through his hands it was as if warmth energy was flowing. Time after time, when my part of me went into some sort of stupor or terror, Roman would come up and help me with words, and touch. It helped me realize what was going on, it helped me go through these processes and free myself.

This experience taught me that psychedelic journeys require serious preparation and inner work. Entering a journey without a clear intention or request can be more difficult and unpredictable. Mushrooms are not something to be taken lightly—they reveal the depths of the subconscious, and it’s crucial to approach this with respect and readiness for transformation.

Now, I have a clear sense of direction and the next steps for my personal development journey. I am deeply grateful to Roman for his professionalism, support, and inspiration.